Sunday, 27 July 2025

 dont blink because time doesnt wait for anyone anymore, cant believe that its alr gonna be aug in a few days.... 

#nowplaying : i'll always remember you

another month gone by too soon... cant believe i've finally put down alot of hard feelings and finally tried opening up to new ppl and things again. well that isnt going too well but at least im trying.. by far the longest and still going strong for a person that i know might hurt me if we try but we wont even be trying because it just isnt gonna happen and idw it to become another " right person wrong timing " kinda situation... but 괜찮아요 imma still live w the if its meant to be, it will be kinda mindset...

throwing back to 四月。 one hella crazy mth of man-ewr-hcm ! 

had the best time in manchester to edinburgh w another great set of cc and tc , we spent a day in scotland and another destination crossed off my list.

after man, we go to ewr ! world's longest flt and i got to say i really hate staying at times square but cheers to free fridge and microwave in the room ! no photos from april's ewr but i have more for may's ewr hehehe.

and straight after ewr , i took my first ever solo trip to hcm! ngl i was scared af cause sis here got scammed 50ish sgd upon stepping out of the airport. thanks to my friends for worrying and tracking me to ensure im back in one piece too. vietnam will always be filled w memories for me.. finally managed to visit the cuchi tunnel and explore the war remnants museum ... did my hair and nails too because everything is just soooo cheappp . 

i mean vietnam's traffic was crazy but 10/10 will go back again! their shopping is definitely a girl's heaven..

Friday, 21 March 2025

 cant believe march 2025 is ending soon.. so much happened in the last 3 mths and honestly , delulu kitty is back to stay...  to the ppl who knows, thank you for being my safe space still...

gonna be doing a summary of every mth below just for memory sakes.

January 2025

I did my first SQ12 w syaffi! honestly only changed for it because of the max off before CNY, and also really happy that i was able to join chu san dinner this time. but it will never be the same because ben tan isnt there anymore. n hi ben tan, if u can read these from somewhere hahaha, pls watch over this family and forever give me the strength and patience for everything. and kim has a bf now so pls take care of her too and our new member.

i wish things can be still the same as before but i guess it is really hard and different now. so many unspoken feelings that will be forever buried away. truth to be told, i wish i can go back to being young and carefree. where i wont think 1000x before taking my actions..  but oh wells. i hope that i can be around for 2026 cny again <3

Febuary 2025

its my bday mth !! and im always eggcited to spend bday w my friends n family. thanks to bella and syaffi for spending my bday in hanoi tgt.. not forgetting this year bella actually surprised me w a cake and tricking me into it , knowing her for so long. i know she doesnt do these small things but i m really touched by her cute lil efforts. also ngl i was moody towards the end of the trip because i was tired of the non stop eating and i cant keep up lol.. but thanks guys <3

also did another fra nyc after vietnam , and then korea again . so i was basically away the entire month, and it was really tiring. being away from home for so long. not being able to lie on my bed for good 10 hr was so depressing. but thankful for the memories made in feb . <3

March 2025

met the best set of non ranking for lhr and gosh it was really good to be united like these. goes to show that we can always stand thru tgt against all the nasty ranking toxic mfking dinosaurs!!!  also im an aussie pr in march because i have syd, mel and bne. its alot but pays decent and i get to go lulu to get new gym wears hehe.

idk abt u , idk if u believe in fate or coincidence . but i do and it brings me back to why im in a delulu phase... neverr ever thought ill see u again cause xxxx but i cant believe i actually smiled so brightly just by seeing you briefly. but i gotta stop obsessing over u like this because i know u are not looking for anything now and i cant afford to be heart broken again. i know i should stop all these feelings but deep down i know i cant. im just down bad for you and honestly ,, why u gotta be so perfect ( IN MY EYES N MIND ONLY LOL ) ... i cant stop thinking i cant stop being a sucker for these delulu thoughts, but i know i need to either start it and end it properly or it will just keep lingering until im dedass hurt and tired..

i know i should make an effort but why am i so afraid this time. why isit that i feel like u r too good to be true,,, i wish we can meet again but idk honestly....

i guess thats all for now,  thanks for being my safe space thaat is opened to the public :)

xoxo