#nowplaying : peter pan was right

 life has been a wreck lately.. and trauma is coming back to haunt me.

aug 2025 , cant believe i scalded my hand in jnb and it was plain stupid because i thought it wasnt serious but guess the blister wasnt kidding and that was whad gods had in plans for me? because wdym i had 2.5weeks of mc and it was the craziest time of my life .. so many things happening and i wanna say i really enjoyed the days off in sg.. 

sept 2025, back to flying as per norm.. life was crazy , heart was aching, felt like i didnt want to do anything again but i had to be as normal as i can? exhausted.. lost myself a lil but gained some clarity . but really was that what i wanted ? or did i just wanted to hear the truth to hurt myself again? 

...... fast forward and now we are in 2026. feb ....

life has been crazy couldnt even find the time to come back and write. bottled up feelings and thoughts from 2025 was killing me,

just gonna summarise 2025 here quickly .

 thank you for showing me how to love again and for showing me that i am actually stronger than i alr am. .. i picked up running again and i love it so much. i am happy w life as it is, and for allowing myself to find comfort in knowing you and walking away from what i thought could meant something in my life.

you healed and broke me in a way that ill always remember in my heart, forgetting you wont be easy but ill always and probably be looking out for u still for awhile but its ok. it doesnt hurt that much anymore

realised that im always the voice and person connecting everyone and im so tired. whad if i disappear will ppl notice? will they care to look for me ? i dk . feels like they only come to me when they need me which sucks. cause im feeling all these in feb, and i always want to love feb. i said i love feb cause its the mth that i was born in, and cny mostly coincide in feb and families can be tgt during this period but nowadays.. it just seems to be just me myself and i.. 

but i shall keep feb 2026 for another post, because this backlog is too far behind.. 

gonna end this w some photos from the last few mths of 2025. <3

till the next time . 

xoxo

♥ Embrace the magic
06:01

 dont blink because time doesnt wait for anyone anymore, cant believe that its alr gonna be aug in a few days.... 

#nowplaying : i'll always remember you

another month gone by too soon... cant believe i've finally put down alot of hard feelings and finally tried opening up to new ppl and things again. well that isnt going too well but at least im trying.. by far the longest and still going strong for a person that i know might hurt me if we try but we wont even be trying because it just isnt gonna happen and idw it to become another " right person wrong timing " kinda situation... but 괜찮아요 imma still live w the if its meant to be, it will be kinda mindset...

throwing back to 四月。 one hella crazy mth of man-ewr-hcm ! 

had the best time in manchester to edinburgh w another great set of cc and tc , we spent a day in scotland and another destination crossed off my list.

after man, we go to ewr ! world's longest flt and i got to say i really hate staying at times square but cheers to free fridge and microwave in the room ! no photos from april's ewr but i have more for may's ewr hehehe.

and straight after ewr , i took my first ever solo trip to hcm! ngl i was scared af cause sis here got scammed 50ish sgd upon stepping out of the airport. thanks to my friends for worrying and tracking me to ensure im back in one piece too. vietnam will always be filled w memories for me.. finally managed to visit the cuchi tunnel and explore the war remnants museum ... did my hair and nails too because everything is just soooo cheappp . 

after bella went back, i took my book and ipad to central park and just chilled there. the weather was perfect and i ordered a picnic mat after so next time ill be able to lie on the grass instead of the bench hehehe.

and we have finally reached 六月。half of 2025 gone .. one great mth of lhr, icn , sep and pek <3

didnt do much in lhr this time , but i was so glad i managed to catch one of my fave musicial : my neighbour totoro! <3 didnt do much in icn too because the stay was too short, but glad i got facial done and also managed to shop a lil heheh.

then went back for sep and thankfully i have a friend w me too hehe.

ended the mth w my fave china flt to pek! best hotel and best part was i got to pax back = pax princess  :) 

ngl was having mixed feeling abt pek because of my css but it all worked out well in the end ..

had the best time in pek and i wish it could've been longer... 

finally we are at 七月。one crazy mth of fun and laughs. finally went back to ams, and also road trippin to chc w my fave sq duo <3

cof god was on my side and i managed to cof into estella's ams . one crazy ifm onboard but the team made it so much better

thank you for the flt <3  

best trip ever even tho we all had our mood swings and tiredness from idk whad.but thank u for tolerating one another <3

and thats a wrap for everything ! cant wait to see what life has installed for me for the remaining of 2025

xoxo

♥ Embrace the magic
07:54