#nowplaying : peter pan was right

 life has been a wreck lately.. and trauma is coming back to haunt me.

aug 2025 , cant believe i scalded my hand in jnb and it was plain stupid because i thought it wasnt serious but guess the blister wasnt kidding and that was whad gods had in plans for me? because wdym i had 2.5weeks of mc and it was the craziest time of my life .. so many things happening and i wanna say i really enjoyed the days off in sg.. 

sept 2025, back to flying as per norm.. life was crazy , heart was aching, felt like i didnt want to do anything again but i had to be as normal as i can? exhausted.. lost myself a lil but gained some clarity . but really was that what i wanted ? or did i just wanted to hear the truth to hurt myself again? 

...... fast forward and now we are in 2026. feb ....

life has been crazy couldnt even find the time to come back and write. bottled up feelings and thoughts from 2025 was killing me,

just gonna summarise 2025 here quickly .

 thank you for showing me how to love again and for showing me that i am actually stronger than i alr am. .. i picked up running again and i love it so much. i am happy w life as it is, and for allowing myself to find comfort in knowing you and walking away from what i thought could meant something in my life.

you healed and broke me in a way that ill always remember in my heart, forgetting you wont be easy but ill always and probably be looking out for u still for awhile but its ok. it doesnt hurt that much anymore

realised that im always the voice and person connecting everyone and im so tired. whad if i disappear will ppl notice? will they care to look for me ? i dk . feels like they only come to me when they need me which sucks. cause im feeling all these in feb, and i always want to love feb. i said i love feb cause its the mth that i was born in, and cny mostly coincide in feb and families can be tgt during this period but nowadays.. it just seems to be just me myself and i.. 

but i shall keep feb 2026 for another post, because this backlog is too far behind.. 

gonna end this w some photos from the last few mths of 2025. <3

till the next time . 

xoxo

♥ Embrace the magic
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