Sunday, 24 April 2016

guess everything we been going through is just really testing whether we can last long (?)   its really hurting me a lot, i guess its true that i can see a slight change in me.. but my feeling for you is still so strong... i liked you since a year ago, i love you so much that sometimes i don't recognise myself . you say i changed, but I'm really trying very hard to show that I'm still the same me. maybe my actions gave you the opportunity to overthink and i guess you really love me because if not you wont that affected by it.. I'm sorry I've disappoint you again. I'm trying hard, ppl ask me why hold on if thats the case.. well thats because i love him so much, i want to walk down the aisle w him, i wanna hold onto his hand forever , i wanna indulge in his embrace all the time. I'm not gonna let small obstacles break us down or harm our relationship. I'm trying to keep it a healthy one too. i dw to cause you to have more negative feelings abt me and us. please forgive me for all those mistakes i made. i'll make it up to you and show you how much i really love you and how impt you are to me.

  really really dw to spoil our relationship cause of those minor problems.. but I'm glad at least you told me abt it so that we can work things out ,, :)


and so ok , I'm really done w trying to make friends and be nice. if you want to stay, you would have. you won't judge what has happen now and then decide whether or not you still want to be close w me. i mean you can't just judge our friendship cause of other reason.. i didn't let you down as a friend. you just decided to distant yourself cause of some reasons. I'm really done trying to keep everything going. I'm not even gonna try to make new friends... I'm tired. really tired of everything. i hope this three years can just quickly be over. wanna do well for my diploma. wanna leave school after that. enjoy working life and everything else. gonna show my parents i can do well for school even tho my bf isn't educated much..

missing my bf a lot even tho we just saw each other at work ytd.. but things been tough since ytd.. wanna go out w you again, miss having a proper date . no wonder he felt that way... haisshhs.

Friday, 15 April 2016

so on Wednesday , we went on our date ~ before school reopens for me next monday ... wanted to have dinner w tan and kei also. so we decided to meet for dinner since all of us are free today. ^^  we went to orchard gateway, to dine at GORO GORO. not bad ~ but cause i can't stomach a lot and I'm full easily.. so yea... but it was a great session still ^^ i became a vegetarian there tho, cause i didn't wanted to have any meat intake, so i took spinach and dump it into the soup.. like legit two full plates of spinach,. and kei was judging me the whole time AAHAH. then there was prawns in the soup. but i didn't touch it cause i don't know how to remove the shells.... then kei was like : ah liang oh, kitty cannot eat prawn cause nobody remove shell for her ahh.  hehe so funny and then i was so awkz that i just kept quiet the whole time. I'm really glad that i can openly express my feelings for you in public now, i don't have to hide them anymore. and time flies so fast when I'm w you.. soon, we will be tgt for a month.. but my feelings for you has alr lasted for more than a year. <3

coincidentally wore the same colour shirt as kei kei` ~ after GORO GORO, we went to get some bingsu @ ice lab! two times in a day, good food good company ! then i found an iPhone cable there, heheheh and i took it home  :p   which everyone was judging me for it, cause i was the only sg'rean and all of them are msians,.

then after bingsu, we had nowhere to go, so they both went home. and we went on our date. we took the bus atw to outram, and then took it back to my place. hehe i love riding long bus rides w you. bus rides w you have so much fond memories. <3  i guess it all started when you first waited for me that day, when you told me you wanna ride the bus back w me.. i guess my feelings for you started then alr. hehe and I'm glad that eventually made it tgt. some may say : why spoil their rs.. many asked me to give up. but i didn't want to. i never liked someone so much before,  i never did anything for anyone like how i do for you. it was hard to convince myself. it was very clear i was a third party somehow. but then i had to tell myself I'm not. ... then i decided that i will fight for you and me. but i won't compete w her for you . if its meant to be , eventually things will turn out the way it should. and it did.. ;) I'm happy today and everyday because i'm w you . and i hope everyday in the future will be like these too. ^^


to many more months and memories to create tgt, we still got many obstacles to go through tgt... i still got a lot to learn abt you. <3

i love you lao gong~

Friday, 1 April 2016

hello~ so on the 30th of mar, finally visited adventure cove again~ but i guess i really have no fate to visit adventure cove... the first time i went w my family i only managed to play one slide and left cause they were bored and tired .. so its ok,, then the second time i went, i had to have my period .. and its so freaking sudden and unexpected that idk whad to do. it was a bad experience but it was great still, thank god you were there. ^^ i enjoyed myself still ~~ even tho i had to spent a lot,... on a freaking piece of shorts that costed $62........... -.- :(     but it was ok, i had fun w you.

really bad quality cause i didn't want to spend more money on it, so i had to just take a photo of the photo HAHAH. but the memories are captured in my heart. really looking forward to our next adventure~ i wanna go on a picnic trip w you at the marina barrage. but then its hard to picnic, cause no fucking way am i gonna carry those stuff there... but i really wanna just go there, sit and enjoy the night w you.

now that you are at punggol, we will have lesser chances of meeting .. we will be busy... my school is gonna reopen.. we are all gonna be busier... I'm gonna miss spending time w you..