hey guys! so its already starting to be mid may ? how is your school coming along? I'm so tired already even tho its only the 3/4 week of school? haissss.. everything is so draining and maybe I'm a tiny bit too greedy ? trying to be the perfect person by managing work, studies, boyfriend and family all at the same time. not to forget working out on my body. really tired nowadays. I'm even trying to like rush my driving license at the same time..... and guess whad? today is my mum bday . I'm really sorry i can't spend today proper w her. but I'm really rushing for time cause i need to get my btt done asap.
special section gonna dedicate to mama ! <3
i know things are hard for you these few years. you have lost weight, and you are really tired. i as a daughter have not done my part as a good daughter.. but I'm really trying my best. things are not easy for me too, I'm facing my own kind of stress. I'm trying to cope everything , but i don't think i can and i refuse to speak it out . we all got our own stress and idw to add on to yours. I'm a big girl now, i can prove that i can handle stuff on my own.. i want you to say : my daughter has all grown up...
sometimes i just want you have more faith in me, trust and confidence is key. its very impt to a healthy relationship..., so can i have more of your faith in me? why are you even worried abt me? i have proven myself so many times. you seen my friends. you seen me, why is it so hard for you to trust me ? i don't want you to worry about me, I'm a grown up already,.. i just want you to live comfortably. and you can stop worrying about me..
thank you for taking care of me for the past 18 years of my life. i may not be the best daughter, i may not be filial enough. but i promise you i will be the best in the future.. I'm working hard for you and papa to enjoy retirement soon.. you guys are old enough to be grandparents. but I'm still schooling and too young to get married and stuff. but don't worry, once I'm done w my diploma you two can rest proper at home. ^^ I'm gonna do well for my diploma so don't worry abt me quitting school unless i fail modules..
thank you for taking care of this family for so many years. thank you for being a strong woman. you have to handle all those bullshits we gave you.. papa is old now, thank you for taking care of him and holding his hand when he has difficulty in life. thank you for always cooking my meals for me in the past, thank you for everything you have done. i really love your home cook food, but now I'm so busy working and studying and stuff, i rarely dine at home anymore.. i miss my family warmth. I'm really a noob at expressing myself physically... so i can only post my thoughts out here .. but the saddest part is that you will never be able to understand or read this... i don't want to regret it, but i really can't express myself in public. :( i hope you can understand deep down in your heart.
亲爱的妈咪， 生日快乐！祝你身体健康，长命百岁。放心吧，你的女儿长大了，她会好好读书赚多点钱给你和爸爸能够早点退休，享受你们的人生。这些年你们辛苦了，谢谢你把我和妹妹带大。谢谢你这些年的照顾。 我爱你 ！
♥ Embrace the magic