Sunday, 24 April 2016

guess everything we been going through is just really testing whether we can last long (?)   its really hurting me a lot, i guess its true that i can see a slight change in me.. but my feeling for you is still so strong... i liked you since a year ago, i love you so much that sometimes i don't recognise myself . you say i changed, but I'm really trying very hard to show that I'm still the same me. maybe my actions gave you the opportunity to overthink and i guess you really love me because if not you wont that affected by it.. I'm sorry I've disappoint you again. I'm trying hard, ppl ask me why hold on if thats the case.. well thats because i love him so much, i want to walk down the aisle w him, i wanna hold onto his hand forever , i wanna indulge in his embrace all the time. I'm not gonna let small obstacles break us down or harm our relationship. I'm trying to keep it a healthy one too. i dw to cause you to have more negative feelings abt me and us. please forgive me for all those mistakes i made. i'll make it up to you and show you how much i really love you and how impt you are to me.

  really really dw to spoil our relationship cause of those minor problems.. but I'm glad at least you told me abt it so that we can work things out ,, :)


and so ok , I'm really done w trying to make friends and be nice. if you want to stay, you would have. you won't judge what has happen now and then decide whether or not you still want to be close w me. i mean you can't just judge our friendship cause of other reason.. i didn't let you down as a friend. you just decided to distant yourself cause of some reasons. I'm really done trying to keep everything going. I'm not even gonna try to make new friends... I'm tired. really tired of everything. i hope this three years can just quickly be over. wanna do well for my diploma. wanna leave school after that. enjoy working life and everything else. gonna show my parents i can do well for school even tho my bf isn't educated much..

missing my bf a lot even tho we just saw each other at work ytd.. but things been tough since ytd.. wanna go out w you again, miss having a proper date . no wonder he felt that way... haisshhs.