Friday, 8 January 2016

hello, are you doing fine? are you happy ? are you sad ? are you okay ?? i have so much to say to you, so much to ask you.. but I'm just so afraid of voicing it out.. why ? because i have no rights to speak up anymore. ever since we are both aware of our feelings..  it never seems right for me to go near you ever again, its like a sin. i got so much to tell you, so much to share.. but i can't know for sure if you're interested in knowing anymore.. at one point, you showed so much interest and care. and the next minute, you cannot be bothered about me.. i understand your situation. i know its tough. I'm sorry i choose to come into your life despite knowing you're attached. if only my feelings didn't grow so much..  but i never regret anything. I'm really happy when I'm w you.. no one ever make me so happy before, you changed me. you shaped me. you gave me a new life.. and I'm not ready to change again. neither do i want to move on. you're so impt to me, i really dk whad to do if i have to lose you forever.. i used to thought i could just move on when it was time to . but now that I'm aware of our feelings, something inside of me is stirring, telling me not to give up on my own happiness.. even if it means that someone else have to be hurt.  i feel so guilty and sad, that our relationship like this is almost coming to a year.. i wish we stand a chance, but that means that you have to end it w her... but I'm afraid also. I'm overthinking a lot... again.. i hope you're doing well. i hope to see you again soon . i hope we both can think through and do something soon. ...