Thursday, 3 December 2015
so i was right, everything is back to sq one again. but this time, its different. when you was away. the way you chat me up, the way you talk to me. its all so different. and i like this change. because i like you. because you became my everything, while I'm just a spare piece in your life, i know very well that you won't be able to leave her side. it won't be easy for you and her, especially when you guys came a long way together. i understand it all, and I'm really sorry and guilty for actually coming in-between you two, but i really can't control how i feel towards you anymore. i want you to know how i feel, i dw to hide my feelings. i dw to regret it in the future for not speaking whad i feel. its okay if you never really paid attention to my feeling, or maybe this is just a game to you..
i know one day, I'm gonna break down real bad. and its gonna hurt even more than before. but I'm not going to give up on us, or you. because i know that if i do give up on you now. I'm never ever gonna be able to recover from it. you mean the world to me. you became my everything. idk abt you, but our relationship is just so complicated.... I'm secretly blessed by god for giving me the fate to meet you and know you. but I'm also cursed by them for meeting you at the wrong timing. its up to us now on how we want our future to be like. we are the only one that can shape our own future. and i know that i want you in mine. and i won't give up just yet. yes, they may call me a bitch for breaking up a perfect relationship. i never wanted this role too, but i can't control my feelings for you anymore.
我的心只有你一个，我再也不是以前的我了。我喜欢上你，我不怕别人怎样看我们，我只知道，如果我就这样放弃了你，我会后悔一辈子。我要你幸福快乐。如果你到最后没选择我，我不怪你。你说你穷，你说你不帅。这我也知啊，可是我从来没嫌弃过你，反而还跟爱你啊。老婆？ 你确定你要这样叫我吗？ 你愿意等我吗？ 我还在读书，我还没18岁。你真的会要我吗？你也许会后悔，如果我知的话，我会和你告别，我会离开你，我会从你人生中消失。21年前，你没我在的日子也很好啊。可是你说21年后认识了我你也很开心，很幸运。 是真的吗？ 你对我说的每一句我都会牢牢记住啊。你坐巴士回来时，你没说什么，我却一直想着你。不知道你坐巴士会睡得好吗。会辛苦吗。你回到时，告诉我时。你知不知道我很开心，至少你会和我交代一声。 你吸了一包烟时，你说你不会再吸酱多了，你说你答应我。我把你的话当真的了啊。你最好是说到做到啊。 明天就可以看到你了，我迫不及待地快点去做工。我好想你啊，我想抱着你，可是我没这个权利。:( 如果你最后选择了我，我真的很想带你回家，告诉我爸妈，这是我男朋友，这是我最爱的人。 我要告诉全世界，我爱冯永良。
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