Saturday, 7 November 2015
maybe its time to bid goodbye soon ? sighs .. its not gonna be easy. i promise you, when I'm ready to leave. you won't be able to find me again. i will leave from your life completely.. i won't return . maybe ill pop up somewhere to look at you.. but you will never see me again in your life. I'm grateful for the moments we once shared, and ill cherish it forever. you changed my life. you are my everything, but I'm not yours. I'm really thankful for being able to meet you this year. you made my 2015 a meaningful one. thanks to you , i managed to try something i never thought ill ever try ; being in love w someone that i know i can never call mine. " The most beautiful thing in the world cannot be seen or touched, they are felt by the heart. " you are the most beautiful thing in the world to me, despite your flaws and everything. even tho i hate the fact you smokes, but you're still the most beautiful thing i ever seen. without you, i wonder whad kind of person ill be... who will i be ? how different will i be from who i am now....
you said you do think about me.. but ill never know whether you're telling me the truth or not. even tho sometime i know very well that its a lie, i continued to lie to myself thinking its real. this imaginery relationship I'm dreaming of... as each day passes, .. i realise I'm falling even deeper than before. knowing it yet not giving up . because deep down, i know very well .. if I am going to give up now, i will regret it forever. and if i wanted to, i would have given up 6 months back. They said. A crush only last 4 months, if it exceeds, its love.... yes i like you so much i want to say i love you ,. but i can't. because once i say that, then there won't be a way out for me. i cannot and won't say i love you, until i know that you won't leave me dying. all those text mages. do you remember whad you say to me ? cause if you don't, i do. and i will never forget them. i like you so much , idek whad I'm going to do when i have to say goodbye to you. i will regret saying goodbye. but when that time comes, i have to say goodbye even if i have to murder my own heart.
21 years ago , i was never apart of your life. you never knew i existed, i never knew you existed. we were all happy w our lives. but this year, 2015. we met. 你说如果没缘就不会认识了，你说得对。我有机会认识到你是我的福气，因为你是我的小幸运。你是我最想留住的小幸运。 我知道要和你告别是迟早的事，可是我希望我不用和你说再见，因为我会恨舍不得恨舍不得你。 :( 可是我还是要还你你以前的生活，那是你没有我在，你不会因为我而烦恼，因为我的存在，造成了你的麻烦，对不起.... 我也不想的，我会尽快离开你身边，你也可以过回你以前的生活。过回你和她幸福快乐的日子，你要好好珍惜她，因为她也很爱你。
no matter whad the future has installed for us, i want to promise you this, i will never forget you. and i hope you can promise me too, that you will never forget me. i can't exactly name our relationship now, cause its complicated. but i wan you to know, even when i leave your side. i will love you forever . till we meet again, if we have fate. it was fate that bought us together in the first place. and i believe god has prepared something for both of us. its up to us whether we want to open this pandora box. 你要记得，我会永远爱你的，无论我们两都在不一样的地方，我是不会忘记你的。你是我的小幸运。 遇见你是注定的，我们的未来会不会有对方，是我们自己去争取的。
♥ Embrace the magic