Wednesday, 11 November 2015
i realised that I'm always thinking abt you... not just always, but I'm thinking abt you even more than before... i can't control my feelings anymore. idk how to stop . i can't stop. i dream about us , i dreamt abt you and her... i dreamt abt the three of us. and its very scary how we three can all be in the same dream.. I'm really sorry that i came into your life and changed it ... if only we kept our distance back then.. perhaps i won't have fell so hard for you ...
你记得吗？ 我说过的那些话..你有用真心去读吗？ 我说过了，以后就不会有我烦你了... 总有天你会离开我，或者我会选择离开这里。可是我是不会不要你的。 因为你是我最想留下的小幸运。如果有缘，我们会再见到彼此。你却说了：如果没缘就不会认识彼此。 which is true, without fate, i wont have met you . i wouldnt have like you. i wouldnt have stay so long. i may not know whad you truly feel abt me, but i know my feelings for you keeps getting stronger everyday... you know all three of us are gonna be hurt real bad one day... its either me or her... if this is the case, sometimes i just want to give up . and wish you will stay w her, because... if she really cherish you, she won't want to lose you either.. its okay for me to be sad alone. its okay cause I'm the third person here. but then you came telling me words that makes me heart skips a beat. it makes me heart beat even faster... 如果全世界我也可以放弃，至少还有你值得我去珍惜... 你说过的话，我能当真吗？ 我多希望我可以啊，明知道是在欺骗自己，可是还愿意傻傻地去爱着你。
they told me not to give up , they told me to fight for my own happiness... and i will. i will fight for it. however, i will not fight w her.. i want you to choose who you want to stay. its okay if you choose her cause im just someone you came across in 2015... but if you choose me, ill definitely be happier.. 我们不要说再见，因为我会很舍不得你.. you told me this : 你不可以离开我 but do you really mean whad you say ? i want to stay in your life. i want to be apart of it, but i know very well that i can't be there until someone else leave. you can't keep both of us... 反正地球是圆的，我们以后还会遇到彼此。可能现在不是时候吧，
♥ Embrace the magic